Showing posts with label Lent. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Lent. Show all posts

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

Waiting Expectantly


The following sermon was delivered by The Rt. Rev. Larry Benfield of Little Rock, AR at Christ Episcopal Church.

“Waiting expectantly for the kingdom of God.” It is a small phrase. It is taken from today’s gospel. But it may be the phrase that lives on long after our loud and rather brassy “hosannas” of this day have echoed into silence.

Waiting is what we all spend so much of our lives doing, sometimes with expectation, sometimes with expectation that something holy will come out of the messes in which we find ourselves. Waiting in line at the grocery story. Waiting for the economy to turn around. Waiting for a return to health or a better relationship. Waiting for the child to return home. Sometimes simply waiting to die.

There are always those among us who wait. Period. The gospel story of the Passion of Christ is filled with waiting, primarily people waiting for death. Pilate is waiting for Jesus to die. The story tells us that he starts making inquiries as to whether or not this convicted criminal is dead. Something must be done with anyone who would challenge the power structures of the day.

The religious officials are waiting for Jesus to die, no doubt. Those of us in the official religious world are never quite comfortable when someone comes along and questions how we have always done things. Today’s gospel should be sobering for members of the clergy.

And I bet Peter is waiting for Jesus to die. Each of us knows only too well how painful it is to face someone whom we have let down, as exemplified when Peter denies his friendship with Jesus. We simply want the injured party to go away so we will not feel shame any longer.

Waiting. Period.

Thursday, March 15, 2012

40 Days Beneath the Veil: Day 22

It's been a while since I wrote anything about my experience with veiling, so I thought I would give you all a quick update on how things have been going. I'm sure there are a few of you who are eagerly awaiting my epiphany on all the spiritual gifts of veiling and how I may have grown in my relationship with God. But I'll be completely honest in saying that I cannot wait for Easter Sunday to be here. I don't know what I expected this veiling experience to be like, but it has not satisfied me the way I thought it would.

One of my primary motivations for veiling this Lent was as an act of penance for my vanity and to humble myself a little. The problem is that instead of spending lots of time and energy on my hair every morning, I'm spending it on selecting the perfect scarf to wear and making sure it coordinates with whatever outfit I have on that day. I feel like I spend most of my day fussing with my scarf either because it's super windy and the stupid thing won't stay in place, because I'm overheating and I want to re-position it so I get good air circulation underneath, or some other equally ridiculous reason. The intention was for it to make things simpler and take attention away from my appearance, but I feel like it's had the exact opposite effect.

In contrast, I will say that I have enjoyed veiling at church. I feel like it helps keep me from being distracted by the other parishioners by acting kind of like blinders. However, I think that I might actually be more of a distraction to others than I when my "glory" (my hair) was showing. In retrospect, I think the whole exercise of veiling would have been more effective and more rewarding if I had chosen to veil only at church and if I had purchased either a black or white chapel veil to wear instead. That would turn my practice of veiling into a symbol of the sanctity of the sacraments and our corporate worship. I am still considering this for myself for after Easter.

One thing that has been fun about veiling is having the opportunity to talk about it with some of my peers. For the most part, no one from nursing school has really asked me about veiling. I was actually quite surprised by this for the first few days because I had assumed that people would be curious about it. But I am very proud to say that my fellow students are very culturally competent, something which is pretty much beaten into our heads from day one, and those who have asked me about it have been very polite in doing so. Others have been reading this blog. Either way, it has been rewarding to introduce others to the idea of veiling. Even if none of them ever pick up the practice, they will be better informed should they ever encounter a patient or patient's family member who does.

As for me, I am trying to figure out a good solution for when the hubs and I take our little man cub down to Florida to visit with Grandma next week. I'm thinking I may go with some wide-brimmed sun hats in place of my lightweight scarves so I don't pass out from the heat. Oh, and did I mention how I'll be traveling via airport with the baby by myself? That should be fun. I wonder what the TSA agents will think of my headcoverings?

And may the peace of the Lord be always with you.


Wednesday, February 29, 2012

40 Days Beneath the Veil: Day 7

Today was a bit of a challenge. When I made the decision to veil for Lent this year, I was expecting the typical Lenten weather. You know... cold, rainy, dreary, miserable. I never expected it to be clear, sunny, and warm like today. In fact, I might even go so far as to say that today isn't just warm, it's HOT! I spent a considerable amount of time outside today walking from my car to the hospital and back, then from my car to the other hospital and back again. Not only was I uncomfortably warm, to say the least, but I really wanted to feel the wind in my hair and the sun on my skin. It sounds terrible, but I really kinda want the crappy, end-of-winter weather to come back for just a little while longer. 



And may the peace of the Lord be always with you.


Tuesday, February 28, 2012

40 Days Beneath the Veil: Day 6



And may the peace of the Lord be always with you.


Monday, February 27, 2012

40 Days Beneath the Veil: Day 5



And may the peace of the Lord be always with you.


Sunday, February 26, 2012

40 Days Beneath the Veil: First Sunday of Lent





And may the peace of the Lord be always with you.


Saturday, February 25, 2012

40 Days Beneath the Veil: Day 3

Clinical Day


And may the peace of the Lord be always with you.


Friday, February 24, 2012

40 Days Beneath the Veil: Day 2

Taking my little man cub to day care so I can to to a Baccalaureate Curriculum Committee meeting. 


It was actually a very good morning. Two of the caregivers in John's day care room are Catholic and asked me about my scarves. I explained to them that it was something I was trying out for Lent. One of them told me that an older woman in her church always wears lace mantillas to Mass and how she's always admired them and wants one of her own. When I told her I would bring her a list of websites where she can order some beautiful mantillas in a variety of colors, lengths, and shapes her face lit right up. 


And may the peace of the Lord be always with you.




Thursday, February 23, 2012

40 Days Beneath the Veil: Day 1


Lent is the 40-day period between Ash Wednesday and Easter Sunday. It is a liturgical season during which we are called to repentance and self-reflection by way of prayer, fasting, and almsgiving. The purpose is to remind us of our dependence on God for all things, to draw us closer to God, and to prepare us for the Great Feast of the Resurrection on Easter Sunday. Many people observe Lent by giving something up (ex, meat, alcohol, chocolate, Facebook) as an act of self-denial or self-sacrifice. This can be, in a way, a type of fasting depending on what you choose to give up and why. It can help us in our effort to draw closer to God if the things we give up are keeping us from God. In the last few years, I have noticed many people choosing to give up TV and social media during Lent because they view it as an unnecessary distraction in their daily lives. Others observe Lent by taking something on, such as daily prayer, scriptural study, and attending mid-week services. This can help to refocus our attention on our spiritual development by giving it a more central role in our daily lives. Some Lenten disciplines are more challenging than others, but we all have our own unique experiences... our own crosses to bear.

Personally, I've chosen to do something a little different this year. In the past, I've given up foods that I viewed as overly indulgent and which I enjoyed with gluttonous delight. I also usually commit to attending at least one mid-week service at church. Many churches offer a Lenten soup supper with evening prayer as an opportunity for members to come together in community for fellowship and corporate prayer. This year, in addition to attending a mid-week pray and study group, and reading evening prayer with James at home after dinner, I am going to wear a headcovering. Originally I had planned to veil only when going to church, but after giving it a lot of thought and prayer I have decided to veil full time until Easter. I can't say exactly why I've chosen to veil. I don't really have a precise, deliberate, or logical reason. It's just something that I feel called to do, something I feel drawn to.

A very dear friend of mine veils when she attends Mass and occasionally veils full-time, too. We have not talked about veiling very much, more in recent weeks than ever before, but she has blogged extensively about her experience with veiling.

I think, for me, it is primarily an act of humility and a gesture of penance for my vanity. People say that blondes have more fun, but my experience is that red heads get a lot more attention. My hair has been blonde, brunette, red, curly, straight, long and short. Red hair, by far, gets the most attention. During my mental health rotation, patients always remembered me from week to week as "that red-headed nurse." I'm still not sure if that was a good thing or a bad thing, but it is what it is. And when I have John, people make an even bigger fuss about it because his hair is red, too. I get all the classics. "Oh just look at that red hair!" "Look at the red-headed little baby! He looks just like his mama!" "No denying that boy. I can see where he gets his hair." This is, of course, totally ironic because 1) John is adopted and 2) my hair color comes from the salon. But whatever. The point is that I think it would be good for my ego to take a little break from all the gratuitous, but well meaning flattery.

It is a common practice among Eastern Orthodox Christians and many Roman Catholics to veil during prayer, when entering a church, and when in the presence of the Eucharist. The scriptural reference comes from Paul's first letter to the Corinthians when he says, "Christ is the head of every man, and the husband is the head of his wife, and God is the head of Christ. Any man who prays or prophesies with something on his head disgraces his head, but any woman who prays or prophesies with her head unveiled disgraces her head....Judge for yourselves: is it proper for a woman to pray to God with her head unveiled? Does not nature itself teach you that if a man wears long hair, it is degrading to him, but if a woman has long hair, it is her glory? For her hair is given to her for a covering" (1 Corinthians 11: 3-5, 13-15). It is important to note that Paul describes a woman's hair as her "glory." One rationale for veiling, particularly which at church, is to cover our glory so that others may focus their attention on the glory of God. In his letter to the Thessalonians, Paul says to "pray without ceasing....for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you" (1 Thessalonians 5:17-18).

Now I'm no biblical scholar, but if we are to veil ourselves when we pray, and we are to pray without ceasing, then it stands to reason that we are also called to veil without ceasing. That's what I'm going to attempt to do throughout Lent this year. AND... though taming my vanity is also an objective, I intend to prove to women who are interested in veiling that you can cover your head without looking like a complete weirdo. In fact, I'm going to show that you can look rather lovely.


And may the peace of the Lord be always with you.


Tuesday, February 21, 2012

For Lenten Beginners


And may the peace of the Lord be always with you.